Thursday, January 23, 2014

Butterfly.


...what goes around comes back around; this is nature's way.
be conscious of what you do, because you will be repaid.
if you put turnips in the ground, you will not harvest grapes.
you are what you attract, and this is why I say:
if you want a butterfly, you've got to be a butterfly. 

-(india.arie "butterfly")
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I say this to people a lot. Well, maybe not exactly in reference to butterflies, but more the gist of this lyric, which is that people will treat you how you let them. 

Let me say that a different way: what you think you deserve is exactly what you’ll get.  If you feel poorly about yourself, and believe yourself unworthy of being treated well, you cannot rightfully be surprised when you find yourself involved with someone who doesn't treat you particularly well. That's not to say if someone treats you like garbage, you deserve it. Nobody deserves anything less than to be treated respectfully and with kindness. But it's not enough to hope for that; you have to require it. You must be courageous and willing to walk away from a situation where you're not getting -and giving- respect and appreciation. If you plant turnips in the ground, you will not harvest grapes. Which is to say: you have a responsibility to be the best version of yourself possible, and to treat the people in your life as you'd like them to treat you. Be nice. Be patient, and kind, and not an a**hole. And sure, sometimes you have to teach people how to treat you, and sometimes they turn out to be worth the effort, but sometimes they don't. And that's okay. If you do an inventory, get right with yourself, start feeling good and knowing your own worth, you're more likely to attract the sort of partner you want and deserve. 


If.

Besides couples work (which is my favorite), I particularly enjoy working with men. It is a strange and difficult thing to figure out how to "be a man" in our modern age, and the expectations of what that means is ever-evolving. I was thinking about that this evening and was reminded of one of my favorite poems. To be honest, I don't think these qualifications define a "man" so much as a they do a "decent person"; it's nonetheless a standard of living that's worth aspiring to.
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If—
BY RUDYARD KIPLING

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,

Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;

If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;

If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken

Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings

And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;

If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew

To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,

Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;

If you can fill the unforgiving minute

With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,

And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!

Saturday, January 18, 2014

REGRETS.

Personally, I don't believe in having regrets. That said, if I had my first 34 years to do over again, some of these things I'd definitely do differently. Check it out. 

http://www.viralnova.com/regret-when-older/

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

DISCLAIMER.

I can't find a better place to put this than right here. 

FYI and just in case this doesn't go without saying: 

This blog is NOT intended as psychological advice. Anything I endorse here is simply my opinion. If you are having emotional or mental health problems, please feel free to contact me to make an appointment or find someone who can help or call 911 or whatever you need to do. But please note that  I am not responsible for any changes you may implement into your life based on what you've read here, good or bad. You are! 

Thanks for reading. :) 
~amy~

Don't Take Anything Personally.

Have you read “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz? If not, I recommend it. I read it awhile ago, but I was thinking about the agreements today and reminding myself to keep practicing them. Here they are: 

1. Be Impeccable With Your Word
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love. 

2. Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering. 

3. Don't Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life. 

4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.” 

I’ve written before about the third agreement; when I talk about taking the time to consider the intentions of others, that’s what I’m talking about. I’m talking about not making assumptions, because we never know what’s really going on with another person unless we look at their face and ask them with words. But what about that second one? Let's look at "Taking Nothing Personally"? That’s a hard one. 

This is a thing many of us struggle with. Some people are just more hardwired than others to take things personally. I think it’s merely an aspect of our temperaments, that some of us are simply more or less sensitive to the actions and moods of others. If you happen to be a person who struggles not to take things personally, it doesn’t necessarily mean you are self-centered or that you think you’re the center of the universe. It just means things feel really real and visceral to you, and that you are easily impacted by others around you. 

So, do your best to work on it and don’t beat yourself up over it. You just have to work harder to follow this Agreement. I have to admit, I kind of admire those people who just let everything roll off their backs. Some people seem to be innately inclined to follow this Agreement. Good for them! 

For the rest of us, we have to work on this. One thing that is really hard if you’re someone who struggles with personalizing things, is being okay with ambiguity and with not really knowing what’s going on with someone you care about. And more importantly, even when we are not okay with it, not letting it immobilize us. It is true that things others do very rarely have anything to do with us, but it often doesn't feel that way, and so we decide that how we feel is how it is. 

 We have all had people sort of just disappear from our lives without warning or explanation, and that is a terrible feeling.  Personally, I don't mind things ending or changing- as things do- when I have a clear understanding of why it happened and if I am allowed the corresponding sense of closure. But when we love someone well and they leave us, whether in a friendship or a Relationship, without telling us why or what happened, we feel blindsided and confused. In other words, we take it personally. Or if somebody doesn’t love us the way we think they should, we take it personally. 

But how about if instead of making it about what you’re doing wrong and what’s wrong with you, you could just understand that for whatever reason, that person just doesn't have the capacity to be in your life right now. Or they simply can’t love you right now, and it doesn’t have anything to do with you. That way you don’t have to take it personally. You can let it go. It doesn’t have to hurt you. 


Saturday, January 4, 2014

Blunders and Absurdities.

“Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day. You shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.” 
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

It's true, you know. Each day, we wake up to a life over which we have - even if it doesn't always feel that way- complete control. We are in charge of whether we greet the day enthusiastically and with a spirit of adventure, or whether we greet it as we might a distant cousin we don't much care for. "Oh…it's you." Every single day is a new opportunity to get right what we might have messed up yesterday, as well as a new opportunity to let go of whatever old baggage is weighing us down. 

It helps me to remember that nothing is permanent. This state of anxiety I'm currently living in? It will pass. I will survive it. If I'm living the way I endeavor to live, I will even learn from it and come to appreciate its presence in my life. Every mistake and every challenge is an opportunity to grow. If we use these opportunities to their fullest extent, we will live into the life we want to build for ourselves, and we will learn to smile at the "blunders and absurdities". 


Happy New Year, everyone. May it be your best year yet!